Another dissapointing Dr. Visit.

Well as I sit here wondering if I will ever be able to have my own kids and feeling sorry for myself, yes i will admit to that and I dont feel bad for doing it either, not right now anyway. This has really been a struggle for me. I feel like I must have done something wrong and am now being punished. I feel like I am alone in this with no one to talk to about how I am feeling. Sometimes I really just want to give up on this process. So anyway why I am feeling like this is I had my Ultrasound today to see if my ovaries are going to cooperate and ovulate, Well after an uncomfortable time my ovaries are doing nothing. I took the clomid for 5 days and yet nothing. So the Dr said so far the dose of clomid doesnt look like its working yet.... so she is not convinced that it wont work so next week I have to back for yet another ultrasound to see if my body will cooperate or not. I dont know what will happen if It doesnt. I assume that I will have to go on provera to make a period and the try the clomid again with a higher does. I wish it would just work for me. But at least I have to rest of the day off of work. At least I do what I want today , even if that is stay home and be depressed all day. Which I dont plan do, I had my cry and feeling sorry for my self time. I guess now I will be productive. I am gonna go to the gym and then clean my house and do all of my landary today. And probaly go through stuff and get rid of everything I dont need anymore. Then, try to talk my husband into going fishing with me. :)