Surgery

So yesterday I finally had my foot fixed! The Dr. said that my tendon was just flapping around inside my foot!! No wonder I was swollen and in pain.. well he reattachhed the tendon back to the bone.. Now I have a lovely black cast for the next 2 weeks! Then on dec 20 I go in and get it cut off to take the stitches out then I get to pick a new cast for two more weeks!!!

My Christmas List!!!

Omg!! I am updating!!!

Day 16

Ok so today is day 16 of my cylce... went in for another ultra sound. My ovaries were not being very friendly and the they couldnt see them very well but it didnt look like an mature folicles so they dont think I have ovulated or will be... so sunday I gotta go do my blood work to test my progestrone and that will tell me for sure if I did or didnt ovulate. If not and a neg test by day 28... and not period yet I gotta take provera for 10 days and the start the whole clomid cycle over but on 100 mg pills.

If roses grow in Heaven Lord
Please pick a bunch for me.
Place them in my Mother's arms
and tell her they're from me.
Tell her I love her and miss her,
and when she turns to smile,
Place a kiss upon her cheek
and hold her for a while.
Because remembering her is easy,
I do it everyday,
But there is an ache within my heart
That will never go away.

Happy Mothers Day Mom!!! We miss You!

Another dissapointing Dr. Visit.

Well as I sit here wondering if I will ever be able to have my own kids and feeling sorry for myself, yes i will admit to that and I dont feel bad for doing it either, not right now anyway. This has really been a struggle for me. I feel like I must have done something wrong and am now being punished. I feel like I am alone in this with no one to talk to about how I am feeling. Sometimes I really just want to give up on this process. So anyway why I am feeling like this is I had my Ultrasound today to see if my ovaries are going to cooperate and ovulate, Well after an uncomfortable time my ovaries are doing nothing. I took the clomid for 5 days and yet nothing. So the Dr said so far the dose of clomid doesnt look like its working yet.... so she is not convinced that it wont work so next week I have to back for yet another ultrasound to see if my body will cooperate or not. I dont know what will happen if It doesnt. I assume that I will have to go on provera to make a period and the try the clomid again with a higher does. I wish it would just work for me. But at least I have to rest of the day off of work. At least I do what I want today , even if that is stay home and be depressed all day. Which I dont plan do, I had my cry and feeling sorry for my self time. I guess now I will be productive. I am gonna go to the gym and then clean my house and do all of my landary today. And probaly go through stuff and get rid of everything I dont need anymore. Then, try to talk my husband into going fishing with me. :)

Clomid Treatment!!!

So after my long wait with the provera... I finally started. So I called for my ultrasound and went.. everything looked great so i got to start the Clomid. I took it from April 28 to May 2... that stuff made me into an emtional monster...for real. Well I go back on friday May 7th to get another ultrasound.... We Shall see what is next...............